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The wind is strong today. I close my eyes slowly & imagine I’m by the ocean. I drift off. Then the baby cries & here I am, I’m back.



© Violet Ashes 2014


Wide Asleep Lunatic

Rene Descartes Quote 01

My dreams are troubling me again. The struggle to make meaning from them leaves me unbalanced throughout the day. Some say that dreams are meaningless, a random filing system of zero’s & one’s made up into images. Some say that dreams have great meaning & the search for the true meaning could take hours, months or years of psychotherapy. I do not have time for either of those things.
There are thousands of flip-dictionary dream books on the market. None of the solutions they offer feel real. However, I fail to come up with my own answers as to the meanings of the images I see. What do they mean? Why am I seeing these things? Would I be changed if I knew?

Rainy Night

It’s raining heavily & steadily tonight. It’s quiet in the house other than the water overflowing the balcony gutters & the combustion heater struggling. Damn this rented house.

I haven’t been tired in so long now but I’m not missing sleep as much as I am missing waking up. That snuggly warmth awaking next to my husband, the struggle to wake. Since I don’t sleep & he snores I’m mostly relegated to the couch most nights. So waking up never really happens in an official way, more like a stubborn, sticky eye, yawn wake up from sleep I was aware I wasn’t getting.

Going to make a concerted effort to get sleep in my bed tomorrow night… The mornings are just too good to give up for insomnia & Veronica Mars re-runs.

“I never meant to cause you any sorrow.
I never meant to cause you any pain.
I only wanted to one time see you laughing.
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
I only wanted to see you bathing in the purple rain.”