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There Is Always Light

It is raining here again & I love the sound of it. It is so peaceful & makes the whole house so dim & smoky but not pitch black, just a comfortable dark. Like being underwater in the Murray River. If you look up, there is always light.
 I think about Harry in his grave, the small streams of water sliding over the freshly turned earth. A glistening makeshift headstone.
 My niece & nephew came to pay respects last night. Maximus says,
   ‘I’m sorry you died Harry’ as he bends down, rubbing the stone that marks his grave.
 My sister says to Bella,
   ‘At least he’s not in pain now & he can sleep.’
 Bella stops in her tracks, puts her hands on her hips, looks up at her Mum & says,
   ‘He’s not sleeping! He’s dead!’
 She is so right & the statement made me smile at her 5 year old wisdom. What a mind that kid is going to have. I am so proud.

Rainy Night

It’s raining heavily & steadily tonight. It’s quiet in the house other than the water overflowing the balcony gutters & the combustion heater struggling. Damn this rented house.

I haven’t been tiredย in so long now but I’m not missing sleep as much as I am missing waking up. That snuggly warmth awaking next to my husband, the struggle to wake. Since I don’t sleep & he snores I’m mostly relegated to the couch most nights. So waking up never really happens in an official way, more like a stubborn, sticky eye, yawn wake up from sleep I was aware I wasn’t getting.

Going to make a concerted effort to get sleep in my bed tomorrow night… The mornings are just too good to give up for insomnia & Veronica Mars re-runs.

“I never meant to cause you any sorrow.
I never meant to cause you any pain.
I only wanted to one time see you laughing.
I only wanted to see you laughing in the purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
Purple rain, purple rain.
I only wanted to see you bathing in the purple rain.”