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Ex-boyfriend

Q&A

1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
No, it was before the sun came up and I was not pleased

2. When was the last time you met someone new?
yesterday – the new chick @ work

3. What is irritating you right now?
my skin

4. when was the last time you ate pizza?
a looooong time ago

5. When was the last time you held someone’s hand?
today, my nephew

6. Do you have any famous friends?
yes – one of them is on tour a the moment, one is shooting up drugs to avoid touring, one just lost his seat in the state election, one is locked away writing his next novel & one is drawing cartoons somewhere in Glasgow

7. What’s the last book you read?
Lighthouse Family – Jeanette Winterson

8. Last words you heard spoken?
“1200 spires, the only sound – Moscow burning”

9. Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name started with a G?
Yes… Greg…

10. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
My locked wooden box of old letters

11. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
yes

12. Who is in the room with you?
Neo & Violet is fading in and out

13. What are you wearing on your feet?
Nothing

14. What is the next concert you’re going to?
Foo Fighters

16. What was the last concert you saw?
Marliyn Manson

17. Can you play the drums?
I tried but I can’t coordinate my hands and feet

18. What’s the closest item near you that is blue?
The power lights on the laptop

20. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
the colder the better

21. Is any part of your body sore?
yes my left wrist and my stomach

22. What do you wear more, jeans, sweatpants or slacks?
jeans…

23. What is the last movie you watched?
Quills

24. What do you currently hear right now?
Tori Amos singing “Datura” & the hum of the airconditioner

25. When did you last buy a pair of pants?
last week

26. When did you last take a picture with someone?
23rd November – Chewy’s birthday

27.Have you ever tripped in public, regained your balance, and been embarrassed?
yes but I don’t get embarrassed

28. Where did you sleep last? With anyone?
my bed with Neo

29. Where do you shop the most?
Ebay

31. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
NFL

32. Where was your default picture taken?
Glenelg Foreshore

33. Why did you pick your background?
Cos I like it

34. What do you currently smell like?
The Ocean

35. What did you eat last?
Jatz biscuits and cheese 2 days ago and a coffee

36. Would you rather watch football or baseball?
football

37. Missing someone right now?
Yeah Metatron called me and I missed his call and he isn’t replying to my txts… he is out in the desert organising flights so I suppose he can’t be blamed.

38. What’s the strangest fact about you?
I adore pain & twisties & icecream. Not necessarily in that order.

39. Where is your number one person on your friends list?
Probably smashed off his tits on Absinthe and painting watercolours

41. Do you feel like dancing?
nope

42. Last person you texted?
Metatron – but like I said before, he’s not replying…

43. How much money do you have on you?
$20

44. Do you sleep naked?
Yes

45. Is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be?
Yes he isn’t replying to my texts I said that already!

46. Do you burn easily in the sun?
Nope I don’t go out in the sun I am a goth silly

47. Do you speak another language other than English?
French, a little Russian, Romanian, Japanese and Hungarian

48. Do you still like the last person you kissed?
I love him but I don’t like him very much at the moment

50. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
Metatron

51. What was the last text message you sent?
“sorry I missed your text – I miss you”

52. What was the weather like today?
hot and sticky

53. Where did your last hug take place?
in my kitchen

54. Did you cry today?
yes

55. Who are you spending christmas with?
Chewy & Neo

Current mood: exhausted

Garden of Unearthly Delights

Chewy, Chesty & I made our way down to the Best of the Fest (www.neilwardpublicity.com.au/BESTofFest.html) at the Adelaide Arts Theatre last night. 3 comedy acts for the night, though I am pretty sure the 2nd guy, who looked more like an ageing criminal from Trainspotting than your average stand up, would have been totally screwed without the audience heckling shit at him all night. Picked up his Geordie accent as soon as he opened his mouth & wondered what a night we would be in for…
 
Last guy was better, from the US but still he was a little scared of the audience, considering it is well known us Adelaidians are all serial killers & eat hitchhikers for breakfast, not to mention gay US comedians who make fun of our footy game…
 
Tripped it on down to the East End where the Garden of Unearthly Delights (www.gardenofunearthlydelights.com.au) was set up for the month. Chesty noted it was more a contest for who could look the weirdest while still standing than a festival… Beautiful lights everywhere, that’s what captured me. Being the space cadet I am I couldn’t help but stare into the purple & turquoise trees while we tucked into a cone of hot chips appropriately smothered in tomato sauce & mayo.
 
Chewy bought some horrid looking savoury pancake, ate the whole thing – not that I am surprised – but it did make me wonder how he could put that in his mouth but has such trouble with the good old tomato.
 
Finished off the night with a latte  in a little cafe,good end to an interesting evening…

Garden of Unearthly Delights

Garden of Unearthly Delights

 

 

Tears Like Glycerine

I have slept all these days & now I find myself unable to close my eyes… I have lost so much these recent years & only gained a little. I never let myself think that things could be improving, it is just tempting fate & let’s face it fate has rarely been my friend… Chewy is at work tonight, began night shift yesterday & already I am finding it lonesome… I miss his space invading mine. I face two problems:
 
1. I am forever caught up in moments, never letting anything slip by, analysing every moment
2. The solution I am told is to just let the days go by, to relax. Well I do not want to let the days go by, I will miss so much & I refuse to miss those little things & all of those rare big things. I am told that I rarely see the ‘big picture’ because I am so caught in the little details… I like them… I will not sink in this skin. I will not let the days go by. I will let these tears fall & shimmer like glycerine…

Glycerine – Bush (1995)
 
Must be your skin that I’m sinking in
Must be for real ‘cos now I can feel
& I didn’t mind it’s not my kind
Not my time to wonder why
Everything’s gone white
& everything’s grey
Now you’re here now you’re away
I don’t want this remember that
I’ll never forget where you’re at
Don’t let the days go by
Glycerine
I’m never alone
I’m alone all the time
Are you at one
Or do you lie
We live in a wheel
Where everyone steals
But when we rise it’s like strawberry fields
I treated you bad
You bruise my face
Couldn’t love you more
You got a beautiful taste
Don’t let the days go by
Could have been easier on you
I couldn’t change though I wanted to
Could have been easier by three
Our old friend fear & you & me Glycerine
Don’t let the days go by
Glycerine
I needed you more
When we wanted us less
I could not kiss just regress
It might just be
Clear simple & plain
That’s just fine that’s just one of my names
Don’t let the days go by
Could’ve been easier on you
Glycerine

Survivor

I had a call from Chesty tonight after we met at Nova. So much is going on at work, I am not sure where to ever start or even if I should.
 
I wrote to PJ today to talk about I feel about her recent behaviour. I received no reply – I did not really expect to. No-one wants to hear negative things about themselves. I believe I am correct in my assessment of her but I would be open to an explanation from her. My gut tells me it is the end of our friendship & although I am sorry for that, I think I tried my best under the circumstances.
 
Although I did not intend to have exposed my family to someone who could be this hurtful I managed to misjudge PJ badly which concerns me.
 
I am watching Survivor as I write. There are similarities with work 🙂 Only we never get to vote anyone off the island. I hate that I keep getting myself involved in all this crap at work. I would like to be able to step back, put my hands up & say “not interested” but I don’t know how to. I cannot in good conscience let all this keep happening & not at least say something.
 
Chesty said,
   “I know you are passionate but you need to be quiet for now & let them lose”. It is hard.
 
I was making soup in the kitchen tonight & behind me I heard
   “shhh, be quiet”. I know who it was. I looked in the window & his reflection was there.
   “Shhh” he said.
   “Be quiet”. He was insistent. I turned around & he was gone.
Now I am feeling a little odd.
 
I have the 14th off work for Chewy’s hearing. I am a little nervous because I know how confused he can get. I have to think positive that it will be okay. The fact I have not shared any of this with my family  or friends makes it difficult to deal with but I do not want to burden them with this. I also find that the more people know about what is going on in my life the more confused I get because they all have their own opinions on what I should do.